Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Bohol

I napped at Panglao beach where the sound of the waves striking the white shore is beautifully measured. The rhythm lulled me to sleep and the wind stroke my face and my hair and flipped through the pages of the book that I hoped to finish but couldn't. When I opened my eyes everything was the way I first saw it. People sunned themselves on the sand. Boats rocked gently with the waves. The sea crashed onto the shore. And yet everything seemed like a dream. 





Wednesday, April 3, 2013

"The Awakening"


Kate Chopin’s “The Awakening,” for all its despondency, conjures the prettiest images of summer:

There was a garden out in the suburbs; a small, leafy corner, with a few green tables under the orange trees. An old cat slept all day on the stone step in the sun, and an old mulatresse slept her idle hours away in her chair at the open window, till some one happened to knock on one of the green tables. She had milk and cream cheese to sell, and bread and butter. There was no one who could make such excellent coffee or fry a chicken so golden brown as she. (138-139)

As can any true poet, Ms. Chopin has with her beautiful prose transformed my own summer and its torturous heat and painfully idle hours into a veritable enchantress. The sun, I find, has not only become tolerable—everything it touches suddenly glistens. And my curtains, they are no longer the obligatory middleman between the sun and me. The sight of their whiteness violently billowing in the wind has become endlessly alluring. My summer is suddenly bestowed with charm. And so when I wipe the sweat off my brow, I wipe delicately like the sensual Creole lady in the story.

For all its despondency, too, the novel moves me to embrace the solitude that I have so feared and labored to evade. I am moved to savor my own space and bask in my thoughts, lugubrious or merry. I am roused to take long solitary walks to places unknown. I am made grateful for my painting and for my dinners with myself. Somehow, Edna Pontellier’s fate does not discourage but liberates.

What an opportune time for an awakening.